C’mon!

So many trials and obstacles awaited me this past week. I don’t know why but life is not exactly very smooth sailing at the moment. It tend to get frustratin. Even karma came back to haunt me with parking fines dated few years back. I’m surprised they still have records of it. I was expecting them to write it off. Sigh.

Oh well, trying to cast aside the negative energy… work has been picking up slightly as I get myself more involved. I realised alot of work is through self-initiation and it is up to you to get it done. Very interesting way of doing things.

It is the weekend here. Friday. No plans at the moment but it would be nice to have a drink after 5 as I am really not planning to stay back late at work.

The only highlight of the day was receiving nice pretty photos from missy j. Her pictures made me smile and I wish she is here in person. I can only count the numbers of days/weeks/months. That’s all I can do within my means now. Patience is a virtue. Patience is a virtue.

I think I should rent some DVDs over the weekend.

Long Weekend

It’s Australia Day today. Hence a long weekend for most people here, including me.

My housemate is also back in Australia. Came back on a very sunny lovely day. However, the only downside was the lift which broke down. So much so we have to make use of the stairways to climb up and down the apartment. It is tiring coz we are on the 6th floor and we had to carry a really huge luggage up to the apartment. This is the first time it is happening and people were trying to pry open the lift which I thought made things worse. It’s kind of “duh” if u asked me. People should have more tolerance towards it.

Aussies seem to be patriotic today with the cars flying the country’s flags. Some of them were so enthusiastic, they were having a rowdy noisy time at the pool today, screaming and shouting “Aussie Aussie, Oi Oi Oi”… Initially it was alright but after a while, it got a bit annoying.

I also went to check out some bed and mattress today. Was at Snooze and saw some really nice mattress and after a while, I was seriously considering the posture-pedic mattress which provides better support for the body and sleep too. I think it is a worthwhile investment to have a good bed. I am seriously considering the Sealy mattress which I quite like. Wish missy j would be there to feel the mattress too since we will be sharing it. I am really excited about getting a new bed coz at this moment, the room is pretty empty and I really have to start furnishing slowly.

A little bbq in the evening with some beer and wine. What a way to pass the evening.

I can’t believe the kind of ad they are showing on TV at this time. Very very explicit and sexually suggestive. Something which will put Maria Sharapova to shame.

Australian Open Semi Final 1

I saw witness one of the most amazing tennis game ever. With such brilliant play and tactics… It was awesome. A game which Rafael Nadal, the world no. 2 lost to Tsonga in 3 straight sets… The crowd has a nickname for him, ”Tsonga Tusnami” and he is French. It is unbelievable how composed he played his game. Absolutely brilliant. Like what Jim Courier said, “A star was born tonight.” I agree with him. I am looking forward to the final to watch him play again.

Aim for the Bull’s Eye

Time flew by this week. Maybe it’s because I had stuff to do. Get to know more about the nature of work. Hopefully I will be able to get up to speed. It does sound a little daunting but I am taking this within strides and see the positive side of things. Of course, I have my own fear but I try to tell myself that fear is as real as it gets and the mind is good at manipulating it. I keep in my the fact that I have to constantly prepare, prepare, prepare. That is the only way.

I had a long chat with missy j over the phone and it definitely made me feel better. I miss talking talking to her. And hearing her voice makes me feel close to her…

I feel so sleepy all of a sudden. Maybe it is the chips I have been eating.. or either that I’m really just tired…

Really looking forward to the long weekend coz it’s Australia Day!

Nightmare @ home

It’s been a while since I last had a nightmare. However, the scariest thing was I had one last night. Of all times! I certainly did not anticipate that. I remembered vividly that I screamed myself awake from that nightmare.

I really don’t know why I got that and I didn’t really have a good sleep after that. It interrupted my sleep and I woke up feeling a little disturb. And it kind of felt worse because u are all alone in the empty room and you could hear the pin drop sound…

I hope tonight will be a better night for me.

Keep my fingers crossed.

One Minute Update

First weekend came and gone.

To be honest, the only that was happening were happening in the evening when I met up with old friends for dinner. It was good in a way that helped to pass time and also distract me for a while. Other than that, I pretty much stayed at home because it was raining the whole time. Wet wet wet.

I caught Cloverfield over the week. I thought the idea was ingenious but the hand held camera movement was just too much for me. I left halfway through the movie feeling nauseous and groggy. It was one major motion sickness ride for me.

It is nice to have an apartment on your own like that. However, the idea of staying it on your own, all by yourself is just well.. I don’t know how should I put it, is not exactly as fun as I thought, especially if you know a handful of people here only. It is not like what I imagined it to be. I don’t know, maybe it is the early stage.

It’s going to be a new week.. hopefully things will pick up.

I miss my baby. Just can’t stop thinking about her. Day and night.

Why the weather like that?

It’s raining and raining and raining non-stop. For a moment, I wondered to myself, “Am I in London?”

Wish Upon A Star

I wish she is here with me right now…

Status Check

It’s almost coming to a week here in Australia. Life is certainly going through a transition. A whole new environment, culture and work. Things are not the way it used to be. It is really not easy going through this by myself. Sometimes, I wish for my dearest to be by myside but I guess circumstances do not permit so.

Work has been pretty alright. On a slow start with all the administration and training…but I believe that things will pick up gradually as time passes. Like what my friend said, “You have to earn your dough here.” True. Things were pretty rough for me the first few days and emotionally, I was being challenged and sometimes, it came to a point where I wondered where am I here. It was that bad. These emotions seemed to magnified alot more when you are staying here all alone. You come back home everyday to nothing. Nothing but yourself. However, as day passes, my brain and mind are adapting itself to the environment. Perhaps, it is just the transition stage, like changing your lifestyle, reprogramming  your brain to adjust itself to the environment. Survival instinct as they say.

Things are slowly getting better. Even though I still come home to an empty quiet home every evening. My only company is the commentary from the Australian Open. It is their voices, the wacking of tennis balls back and forth kept the house a little noiser. Seen quite alot of matches already while I surf the web and chatted with my baby and family. This will probably etched in my mind vividly since I’m like exposed to it every night.

I haven’t seen my baby for almost a week and all I have are pictures that we took @ our ROM and the latest one today which she sent me. It was really sweet of her and it brought a big smile to my face. I like surprises like this. It is really sucky I can’t install any software in the laptop, otherwise, I could have send some pictures to her as well. Of the nice apartment we are living and pictures of me. This is the really longest time we have not seen each other. Even when she was in HK, there were webcams.. but now.. nothing. nothing at all.

It’s going to be Friday tomorrow. Thank god. I survived the first week. I hope things will get better in time to come. It’s all in the mind. Positivity and Optimism play a big part right now. I have to constantly remind myself that. I need to.

Focus!

It is really not easy living on your own all by yourself. It does gets lonely sometimes and it is really not easy trying to keep your sanity in check.

A true test of mental endurance.