Please

You can’t always please everyone. In the end, you will become the one that is unhappy.

Economy of Scale

How much is enough before you decide to call it a day?

Family Ties

I have been observing my family the past few days since I came back from Australia and I came to this conclusion (Not that it is anything new) – They have been so caught with all the realities of life such as work, money, trying to make ends meet etc that I realised that they don’t laugh much anymore. And they don’t look like they are happy. No one talks much anymore. Everyone else just go about doing their own things. It is as though, it comes to a point where we are almost like strangers under the same roof. It is quite sad actually, that things have come to a point like this. I am not exactly sure what is the cause of it but I can feel it in the house. It loses its meaning, especially the word family. Now I’m not sure what it means anymore. We are simply a bunch people who are connected by our surnames and we are staying together because we know that we are all related in our blood.

I wondered if they even know what the feeling of happiness is like anymore. I wondered, what if the day I announce that I am getting married, what will their reaction be.?Will they be happy for me? or will they be worried for me? I really hope it’s not the latter.

Sometimes I feel alienated. I feel like we are all invisible of one another. I am envious of families where everyone is happier, where they take life less seriously, where they can laugh at themselves, enjoy each other’s company, talking with one another and be concerned about each other. It seems that all these qualities are lacking right here, right now at home. I wonder if I can turn to them in times of need or will they end up blaming me of the state I am in. I wish that I have a family whom everyone is open with one another. Perhaps it is in my fate that things will this way. Things have been far too deep rooted that sometimes it is really hard to talk to one another. I can count the number of lines we speak in a day… probably within the counts of my fingers.

I wish that sometimes, my dad/mom would give me guidance rather than berating the kids for what they have done wrong. I mean how does that help in learning about the ropes in life. Looking back as a growing kid through the years, I realised that there was not much guidance given to me about how I should approach, how I should have ambitions, what is the best way of doing things, what golden advice you would give to a kid since parents have so much life experience…. but I didn’t get any of that sort much. Everything was pretty much left to our own devices and when things did go wrong, they tell you off that you shouldn’t have done this or that. I really don’t see the value in this.

I really wish that someone will be there to tell me things…. I have been figuring out life pretty much on my own. It is through books, friends that I found my influence and shape the way I see life itself. I know that it can be better and it would be good to have someone like a mom or dad who can show you, and tell you about handling life in a non-critical way.

Maybe this is the reason why sometimes I dread going back home but I have no choice because at the end of the day, that is where you belong.

I know I can

I now realised that sometimes self-belief plays a huge part in determining how far you will go in your life and how much success you want to gain in your career. Nothing is too small for you unless you yourself feel it that way. After seeing how missy j managed to clinch her interview, it made me see a fact that, if you believe in something or have the drive and passion for it, it will show. And it does not matter if you are lacking in certain aspect or qualification. It does not matter at all. In fact, willingness and enthusiasm for the job are some of the factors that will make a difference. All it takes is attitude, optimism, positivity and SELF-BELIEF. I think a lot has to go into the last element, self-belief. Without that, it is almost impossible to achieve your goals and get that job you desire. On contrary, most people often develop, self-doubt over a period of time, wondering if they are good enough of the position. A very common thought that often clouds the mind and restrict someone from their true potential.

The only roadblock between you and that job, is simply yourself. Nothing else. Therefore, there is a whole lot of truth in the age old saying, “If you think you can, you can.” I always thought it was just a cliche statement to motivate people but after I witness the case of missy j, it made me see it for myself that it is truly possible that one can obtain what they want if they desire it strong enough and willing to give it a shot. Coz you never know where you will end up to.

HEROES 2

Heroes is totally awesome lah. me and missy j finished the season and we are so looking forward to Season 2!!! Coming to you September 24, 2007!! Will some kind soul, please put it on the web?

Misses

I miss the times we were watching HEROS all snuggled up in bed and damn, I wished I had ALL the episodes.

I miss the times when we tried the Hot Springs in Mornington. That was certainly steamy alright! hehe

I miss the long chat we had while sitting along the walkway @ Base Backpackers and how we took care of one another in times of need.

I miss our dressed-up as Mr and Mrs Wiggles every night.

I miss the kisses when I opened my eyes every morning.

I missed the warm hugs when we were walking outside on the streets in the cold, chilly air.

I miss our “Jetstar” jumps at the top of Mt Danedong, overlooking the entire city of Melbourne. And it was freeeezzzing alright!

I miss the lovey hugs when we were sleeping side by side.

I missed the conversations we had where we spoke about everything under the sun.

I miss the songs we hear on our roadtrip.

I miss the craziness and adventure spirits we experienced during our bridge climb in Sydney.

I miss going back together to our accommodation with you every night.

I missed your presence/company and I feel empty now that we are back home in Singapore.

I miss the times we were laughing so much during the entire trip.

I miss the times we were fighting in bed.

I miss holding your hands while we were flying 36′000 ft up in the air.

I miss our accommodation that was located so conveniently in the city. Even though it was a little small but it was cosy and it was a nice place where we could do whatever we want comfortably without worries.

I miss the weather. It was really cold sometimes but I am willing to take the chills anytime over a hot humid day.

Last of all, I miss you. Life is not the same anymore since the moment we touched down at the airport.

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Down Under

Just came back from Sydney last night and it was a blast! Had a great time catching up with old friends and it was good to see that each of them were doing well in their respective careers. Didn’t have time for all of them but I am pretty sure that I would have the chance to meet up with them sometime in the future. We chatted quite abit about ourselves and somethings became clearer to me. I knew that all along, it was something I wanted to do but having thought about it now, in a way, it kind of reaffirms the thought I always had in my mind. It is only matter of time that is the only factor remaining.

It was really nice to see that things haven’t changed much in Sydney except that new buildings are continuously appearing and filling up the skyline. The obvious one was the World Tower and E&Y building that stood out prominently the moment we stepped out from Sydney Central Station. It was a wonderful feeling to be back.

We had a wonderful host, a friend of mine who brought us around for some excellent fine dining and also offered his nice swanky apartment for us to bunk in.  We also went for the bridge climb yesterday and it was certainly a experience of a life-time. Even though it was slightly pricey, we figured it was something of an adventure which will certainly last with us a lifetime and we would always remember it.

I am now back in Melbourne, getting used to the ‘4 seasons in one day’ weather. Enjoying every minute of my stay here.  Will be heading out tomorrow to explore outer regions of Melbourne. Got ourselves a rented car from Budget and I am very eager to hit the roads once again, to experience the sceneries and outdoor adventures.

This trip is significant to me as it made me realised what I want, and also the company I get to travel with, missy j. Without her, this trip would have been different, and I am glad that she was here with me throughout. That meant a lot to me and I really appreciate her for being so supportive about it.

I really think I am the luckiest guy on earth.

Time for bed. Gotta wake up early tomorrow.