Chasing cars

Finally… another weekend. Week 39 is coming to an end.

I don’t know why but this week has been a drag. It’s been tough and to a certain extent, emotionally draining. Not because of personal problems but work. People at work to be exact. I mean, it is not easy to be working in a team and putting something together but somehow, i think sometimes, we have to put aside our emotional differences, otherwise, it can be very disruptive especially we are facing each other 40 hours a week in confined space. Having to meet deadlines and producing deliverables is quite a challenge already… there is no need for additional burden on our emotional state.

It wears one down and to be honest, I found it hard to bring myself to a work. It feels like whenever I stepped into the room, I feel a heavyweight on my shoulders and it’s tiring. Sometimes, it’s vibes that one gets from the other. When one is down…. you somehow get ’sucked’ along into it. I don’t like that sort of feeling. I find it distracting. Even though, it’s demoralising, Itry as much to think otherwise and think happy thoughts.

Lately, the team morale has been going through a roller coaster ride. It is certainly not easy trying to juggle both demands of work and the emotional at the same time. Sometimes we simply need to focus and get things done.

In the afternoon, had an impromptu video shoot assignment courtesy of missy j!! Called me in the morning, asking me to go for it since they needed a guy. Since I could get myself a free pair of crocs.. why not eh? . It was a pretty quick shoot coz it was done during my lunch time and I was amazed with the stuff I said considering I never own a pair in my life before! missy j looked really gorgeous with her hair nicely done and her smiles from afar, totally made me go weak on my knees though I tried not to show it. heh. Overall, it was quite fun doing the shoot though i doubt I will be able to bring myself to see the end product.

This is my reward from the shoot:

Choco Croc Islander

P.S. So glad missy j sent this song to me. Been wanting it for the longest time and I didn’t have the time to get it.

When Love Is All Around Me…

I bumped into an old friend today. Someone whom I have not seen for ages. Saw her outside the cafe. It was quite a concidence actually. All of places… haha.. it was totally unexpected. We had a bit of catching up and I realised she was working nearby all this while! Seemed like she’s doing quite well and then yeah, she said it was alright and then she told me she’s getting married in two months time. Whoa. I was surprised. Happy for her. I mean, it is yet another reminder to me that time is really flying by and slowly, one by one, everyone is getting hitch and enjoying couple life. Towards another level of greatness in life.

And just the other day, my colleague who just gotten married and back from his honeymoon, announced that he’s gonna be a daddy next year coz wife’s pregnant! Whoa. I was really happy for him and congratulated him. He’s only 26.

Seems like lotsa of ppl around me are getting married. Just looked at the number of weddings I attended and soon to attend as well. I have never attended so many weddings before in my life and what’s more, they are my friends and colleagues. It used to be relatives or parents’s relatives’ kids… in a way, still a few degrees of separation. but not anymoreeeee!! it’s coming!!!!

Well, marriage is a good thing and it’s always a warm, happy feeling to see the people whom are you close or know personally progressing in their lives. In a way, it also made me see the bigger picture behind it of why people, who are totally strangers in the first place, can fall in love so deeply that they want to spend their together, sharing each other dreams and lives. It’s such an amazing journey. I guess it brings out a whole lot more meaning into life. not just yourself but your other half too and perhaps this is what make marriage and falling in love more fulfilling and worthwhile.

did cupid just pinch me? hmm…

Little Green Song

How to overcome the green beast within?

Shutterbug

FinALLY! I got my hands on Canon EOS 400D! Woohoo!!! Been wanting it for the Longeesst time.

Project Photoshop!

Back!!! From the photoshoot. Seriously, I have no idea how the photos gona turn out but in a way, I had fun. Got to meet people who know people around me. 6 deg of separation alright! What a small world we are living now.

Anyway the shoot was pretty ok. It was a new experience. and at the sametime, play-acting, imagining myself to be some supa-model. wahahaha. Oh well. but it was tiring though. I mean, having to change so many sets of clothes and stuff. Not easy. The whole affair took me one day and I had to put on makeup. Totally not used to it loh.

I am going to get a CD with all the photos on it but to be honest, I doubt I can bring myself to look at it. It would be soooo weird. hahaha.. Oh i got to dress up as Chinatown man in oriental costume!! so hilarious. hahah.

I’m starving. Need food. but no meat.

Supersize Moi!

Dinner this evening was one helluva stressful affair. buffet steamboat dinner that closed within 1hr. Crap. They should have told us rather than making us go on a bloody eating fiesta… that scared the living daylights out of me. I felt like I was eating like a man who was starving the past three days. So un-glam. And with a very nice little postcard warning that a penalty willl be incurred for wastage of food!! *gasp!* Hence, not only we had to eat quickly (racing against time) and we also had to finish all the food on the table. Bah. We tried. and I had sooooo much meat that I was freakin out. The left overs were nicely stuffed between plates to spread them evenly. The whole idea was to make it looked as though we ate like pigs!

Crap. I left the place feeling traumatised. Never before in my life, a dining experience could be that horrifying. The sight of meat and food turned me off big time. For a moment, I thought I was becoming the red beef mysef. smelling like one and feeling like one. Bah. That’s it. I’m going to become vegetarian for the next few days.

I got stiches toooo.. felt so much like labour pains!!! really? hmmmmm.. hahah…. just a wild guess.. but missy j said it was much much more than that. (refering to the labour pains)

Oh well, it’s coming to 2 now and I should seriously be sleeping on my bed. It has been a long week and I have one more week @ UBS to go. Towards the finishing line. (for now, at least)

And it was also missy j’s last day @ work. Seeing her went through the ups and downs, from an inexperienced to very efficient and well-loved worker by everyone. So much so the company is keen on ‘retaining’ her service when she graduates! I think this says a lot eh. Partly I also think that she is blessed with ‘ren-yuan’… i.e., a trait to describe someone who is well-liked and received by people. I am happy for her.. at the same time, a little envious as well.

Well, as she puts it, the road is still long and what happens next, is anybody’s guess. But from the looks of things, I doubt she has to worry much about not able to find a job but more of which one to take!

Photoshoooot tomorrow.. wonder how it’s gona be like.

Buzz cut

I cut my hair again! Feels great!

Groovy dance – Napolean Dynamite

This is really hilarious!!! Tickled me so much!

Jumping beans and cracking jacks

Well, it’s mid month month… moving towards the end of the month. It’s the weekend. Thank god. Work has been the most routine thing ever in my life and I am struggling to find the motivation to keep me going. I wonder if this is a symptom of monotony and burn out. It’s like I am not able to find the drive I used to possess in my first year. This is no good.

2 days ago, I attended the SMU networking session for final graduates. Was there to give them an overview about the nature of our job. It was interesting to see how these students were very well prepared with their name cards and resumes. Submitting them to us on the spot. Looking at their internship experience, it made me want to go back to school and start learning all over again.

Working is something that is pretty much the thing to be doing for the rest of my life. I mean, it’s the way of life. It’s just how I find meaning to it. Initially I thought I could sustain that drive. I was wrong. Somehow along the way, bit by bit, things start to wear you down and you have to set time aside to pick things up again. The amount of work and demands can be quite stressful at times. And sometimes on weekends, you can’t relax totally because work is constantly on your mind.

Maybe it’s the people, i need to surround myself with positive people. Lately, going to work has been a drag and maybe that could be one of the reasons as well. it’s like stepping into a solemn, depressive environment where the morale is not high. Sometimes looking at the expression of team mates just wear you. it has a psychological impact on the team which I find rather disruptive. And it’s really tiring to stay positive and optimistic as it’s almost a battle between the ‘good’ and the ‘dark’ side. it’s tiring. To be honest, i can’t wait for this engagement to end. Too much internal conflicts and scope creeps. personality clashes. I think most importantly is the people who lead the team that makes a difference… if the team lead is unable to pull the team together, then everyone will suffer. I guess this is one of the issues that is sticking out like a sore thumb at the moment. I think in our asian context, too much a time, we are working on ‘assumptions’ and non-verbal communications. It is as though we are expected to know what we are doing and performed as expected which then leads to miscommunications arising.

Working with people is never easy. it’s a delicate affair in maintaining the balance with compromising relationships between people and getting the work done. It is definately tricky cause humans by nature can be unpredictable. Thus such volatile dynamics exists.

Well, it’s a sunday and I just wanna take time off from everything and enjoy the weekend.  It’s been good so far… enjoyed my stayed-in Saturday with missy J. Other than that, the only pain experienced was all the injuries i gotten from the CPA soccer games in the morning. Ouchhhhhhhhhhhh.

We lost. Both games. Bah.

Confession of the beautiful mind

It feels like falling in love all over again. Love that new hair cut. Love that smile.

This is the girl that makes my heart skips a beat upon first sight of her.